I love my ninensei students so much. I gave her bonus points for this too, since I think creative English should be rewarded.
honestly this is me every day in class.
I haven’t done a positive post in awhile and I apologize for that. Last week was rough, but this week has been a lot better. In order to keep myself positive. I will work to remind myself here.
1. I played volleyball today with my co workers. I first freaked out a little thinking I would be awful, and while I was bad, we all still had fun. I’m glad they included me.
2. A few teachers made regular curry AND keema curry for all the other teachers. It was delicious.
3. I have an enkai tonight at an awesome restaurant, and one of the best pizza places in our prefecture.
4. The old gym teacher wants to challenge drink me. As a Wyoming woman, I welcome his foolish challenge.
5. Teachers are driving me so I can drink him under table.
6. Tomorrow I play a soccer game with special needs students.
7. And then have a surprise birthday party for one awesome friend.
8. And I’m just thankful I know so many awesome people, Japanese and jets.
9. And despite all the difficulty in planning winter vacation, in other ways it’s working out so smoothly and it’s just a month away. I’m so excited!!
I may get down sometimes about the more difficult aspects of life, especially here, but overall day to day I am happy. And I can’t focus on the bad or that is all I will have (I learned that too well when I was younger).
Welcome to Japan, where getting traveling to the airport is more expensive than your international flight!
So I went to dinner with my JTE tonight. He was little late since traffic sucks, and then the restaurant I wanted to go to was closed (it was going to be the spicy food litmus test) so we just went to a yakitori place.
Not much to say besides that it was nice and we talked a lot. He’s funny, he laughed enough at things I said, didn’t ONCE say I can use chopsticks well (yay), and I learned a bit more about him. He said he wants to do it again sometime, and I don’t go back to the school I work with him at for over a week so we will have to see.
But now the real question…
do I contact him or do I wait?
Whoa. It’s not Japan. You have to apologize anywhere. Have you considered a different job in Japan?
Okay, obviously I wasn’t clear enough when I just said “formal apology”. This isn’t just “I’m sorry I was late, bossnamehere. I will not do it again. I’m very sorry, what can I do now that I’m here?” to your higher ups, which I did this morning.
"I am so sorry I was late. I was an inconvenience to everyone. I caused so much trouble. I am so very sorry I was late. Please find it in yourself to forgive me for this enormous mistake." to each individual person you work with.
I’ve had jobs before, I’ve had to apologize for lateness or a fuck up before. But I haven’t had to apologize to every single person I work with in this manner because my thirty minute lateness caused such grief for the group.
My supervisor talked to me after and said she even thinks it was too much and that our kyoto sensei is far too strict and it makes her angry. This wasn’t just a normal apology like I did in jobs previous, to me, it felt more like a guilt shaming. Full disclosure: I cried after when I left room, I felt so completely awful. I never cried apologizing to a boss for mistakes back home, because even if I was scolded I never felt so completely wrecked and humiliated. I can’t get another job here anyway, my visa is for this job and it pays far better than any other entry level. This has just been an awful day for me, and now I’m going to go to my friends apartment, drink a bottle of wine on his floor.
Oh. I have to do a formal apology to kyoto Sensei and the teachers for being thirty minutes late this morning.
Seriously, fuck this country. Apparently my “I’m so sorry I was late, I didn’t hear my alarm! It won’t happen again!” When I came in this morning wasn’t enough. I thought I did apologize but I guess it wasn’t enough groveling.
*screams and flies into the sun* kawaiidjdhshshshsh #japan #christmas #gift
Certain things can turn a bad day around.
Gifts from students is one of those.
Between all this inane work bullshit, and my friend texting me about his students debate on men vs women, where one student wrote “When females give birth to a baby, they feel pleasure more than males. The more pain they feel, the more they can feel the dignity of life.”, I am in full on stage 2 today.
I wish I could go home. I truly hate it here today.